Caught up to the throne of God . . .

  

 Brief Note / Background history:

  

       When I was 15 yrs old, (living in south Wales, U.K., where I was born and raised) one of those strange and unusual things happened that one never forgets. There were earlier incidents, also; but I’ll just share this one as it could go on too long to write here. 

        I was sitting on the edge of my bed, in my tiny bedroom, facing its one tall window. Suddenly, I saw that a glorious rainbow was over me... except that I didn’t think of it as being over, me, at all... I just knew, somehow, that what I was seeing was the glory of God; which is strange, because I did not believe in the existence of God, at that time. (...180 degrees of his glory; this is, afterwards, how I described to myself the arch of the heavenly rainbow... for it was not an ordinary one, at all, it was in my bedroom, although my bedroom walls had disappeared. 

        Then I turned my head slightly, and suddenly, ‘a knowing’ was given me that I was inside God (whom I didn’t, then, believe in) and that I would know all wisdom and all knowledge and that he was the beginning and where everything ended and that he was Absolute: absolutely ABSOLUTE. And being as I didn’t believe in God, in the outer part of me that was in this World, anyway, I was very surprised to know all this. I had no words for what I now knew; and so I called it: “IT.” 

       I was even more surprised to find that such knowledge as I now had was as nothing to me.  I mean, that it did not, for one instant, make me feel as though I were something; but, rather, “IT” did the opposite, I knew I was nothing. I remember thinking, that if a body should know such a thing, as I now knew, then such a person would be proud, or very vain; but I saw I wasn’t; and it was this that surprised me. Even so, from then on I would often cry myself to sleep at night because I was not good; and not good because I was bad, but because I was good. And I did not understand any of this, then; “IT” was all as a mystery to me: being as I was unregenerate and therefore in darkness. 

      It was not until I was 27 yrs old that he revealed himself to me, literally, and changed me instantly... and then progressively... being taken till there was nothing left.

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